I have always been really insecure with my body, weight, and the way I look. I haven't felt good about my body since....well I'm not sure I've ever really felt good about it. I have memories as early as the 3rd grade of me wishing I was skinnier. This picture is super unflattering, but I'll let myself slide just a little due to the fact that it was taken when I was 36 weeks pregnant. It's been really hard for me watching the number on the scale go up and up every appointment. I know you have to gain weight when your pregnant, and it's helped having a little bit of an excuse, but I also know that I am not going to be one of those lucky girls that is back into her normal jeans the week after. I read somewhere that most people don't really gain any weight the last few weeks. I've been going on walks every day, and eating normal, so I figured the scale would at least stay the same, if not go down. How the heck did I gain 5 pounds in six days? That's just depressing! I'm hoping some of it is just water weight...or something that will go away quickly. Once this baby is out, I'm no longer going to have an excuse and I will have a lot of work to do. Fabulous.